Been awhile since I wrote on this. I’ll say I’m gonna make some changes. No more telling myself I’m depressed. I’m just gonna spend my remaining time with the people I love. With the people I’ve neglected to love. So what if I don’t belong anywhere? I’m sick of letting it being me down to the depths. This is me making a promise to just enjoy people and not get upset at the little things. To just be in people’s lives because that’s what they need. To enjoy nature and the stars and the people that the stars remind me of. Bonds won’t be broken unless I pull them apart. Jealousy has the most leverage. It’s time for me to be happy.
Now my tender heart had hardened
I’m taking walks in my dead garden
I’m shooting marbles ‘cross the floor
In the maintenance closet at the grocery store
In my little black apartment
I found love’s secret compartment
And now I keep my things inside
That’s my Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
Somewhere back there I started drifting
And I just drifted all away
Now am I still the man you paid for?
Am I something completely different in the night and in the day?
I was hideous and handsome
And I held myself for ransom
Yes I was honest and I lied
That’s my Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
And I know that you tried
I was standing on the beautiful downtown skyscraper
I was looking down the side
But beauty’s frail and beauty’s passing
And she soon goes out of fashion
Then she’s just running down the drain
She’ll be always stuck somewhere between big joy and big pain
And although she’ll always slay me
I will make her be my baby
Yes I will take her as my bride
There’s a thousand ways to love her
Open heart and undercover
And I just never could decide
That’s my Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
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